Today was a more emotional day than I thought it would be. There was something so raw. A wide range of feeling; like we were abandoning our own kids to go get another, to being crippled by the fear of Satan, second guessing whether I was a good enough mom to handle all these little lives, to pure excitement of finally meeting Shepherd, and then wondering about his little heart.
I know that we are where we are supposed to be...perfectly relying on God to fulfill our every need. I get giddy thinking about all of Shepherd's new friendships, watching the story of God unfold in his tiny little heart. I am also sad thinking about the friendships he will be leaving behind. The only faces he has probably ever known. I am preparing my heart for the day we go to the orphanage and see all the faces we cannot bring home with us...children whose reality is so different from Shepherds now.
We leave early tomorrow morning to start an adventure of a lifetime...who knew on our 12 year wedding anniversary we would be taking pictures on the Great Wall of China. God's plan is so lavish for us. From the very day we moved forward with this adoption God has been unfolding one blessing after another. From church blessings, to friendships, to a crazy housing situation that perfectly met paying the remaining portion of the adoption, to a crazy spiritual year that was steeped in truly understanding God's sacrifice and pursuit of our hearts. So (emotional right??) if you want to follow our journey this is where I will be updating. How many more will be saved?? One less...we will meet Shepherd on July 21,2014...Gotcha' Day!